they were like. As most of you know my mother passed away when I was 3 years old
and my mothers parents raised me. We were talking about our childhood and how tough it
was. I would not say I had a terrible childhood, but it was by no means the Donna Reed
Show childhood. I guess you could say I was a tug-a-war rope between my grandmother and
my real dad. I always felt like if I loved my dad it was like saying I didn't love my
grandmother and vice averse. After my mom passed away my real dad was really in no place
to take care of me and I always felt that the only reason my grandmother wanted me was because
I was the last thing of my moms. It was like I was the toy everyone wanted just because everyone
wanted it. My grandmother was not a great mother,but she was raised in a different time and there
was a huge generation gap. It was really hard for her to relate to me and even harder for her to
show emotion. Now saying all that my grandfather was my saving grace, but he did have to work allot
so there were times that my grandmother went to war(more times then I would like to count). As I was
growing up I was not allowed to see my real dad and was told that he never really wanted to see me
anyway. My grandmother told me so many lies to make me into what she wanted me to be. She grew up in
a time were women got married as soon as possible and started having children and well that just wasn't
me at all. In my family, we as women were told don't dream about having careers or seeing the world
because your not ever going to make it or see places like that. Now that I am a mom I see the difference
in how i was raised to how I want to raise my children. I would NEVER tell my children not to dream, my children deserve the world and all that it holds. I feel that it is my job to stop the mistakes of my parents and raise my children completely different. This is to everyone who has to overcome a bad childhood to be a great person.
Goodnight all; See ya"ll tomorrow
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