started working on packing the kids clothes, plus laying
out what they are going to wear this coming week. I know
I have OCD and have to have things done and perfect. Today
was a rough day for me personally, I guess doing all the
stuff for Tracie's mother, really made me miss having one
of my own. I was just Kaylynn's age when my mother passed
away and it has been an uphill struggle for me, my whole
life. I often have days or moments when the pain of her
not being here makes it hard for me to breathe. It has
gotten really worse the last few years; my rock that helped
me hold it together(my grandfather) passed away in 2003 and
do to conflicting family matters my grandmother is no longer
part of my life. I guess the biggest problem with my mother
not being here is I feel like I have no family left. Even
though I have a wonderful husband and two beautiful children,
I feel i am missing that family connection. I am thankful for
everything I have, but I do miss what I don't.
Goodnight all; See ya'll tomorrow
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